Dearest Abba.
My deepest desire is to be the woman You desire me to be.
I desperately want to be a woman who loves;
who loves unconditionally.
I want to be like Yeshua, who hangs around the sinners,
not being influenced by them,
but who are influenced by me.
I want to be a woman with strong convictions,
yet one that can realize her mistakes, breathe, say,
“I’m wrong” and then learn from them.
I want to be a woman who is a prayer warrior,
who always searches for Your guidance first in everything;
who comes to You in confusion, trouble, sickness,
broken-hearted, and when having the best day of her life.
I want to be a woman with an over-generous heart,
who will step out of her way to make a way for others;
who will feed the poor and clothe the naked.
I want to be a blessing to those who “least deserve it”
because I realize I was once like them.
I want to be a woman who brings light into a dark room,
a woman who is positive no matter what her situation is,
not one word of negativity on her tongue—
who brings joy to everyone she comes into contact with.
I want to be a woman who is confident in herself & in You,
whose beauty is radiant from within.
I want to be a woman whose faith knows no bounds;
seeking & desiring to go to the next level with You evermore.
(Source: alethialov)
A Heart’s Cry.
These tears shed are out of longing for You
Desperation for You rattles my bones
There is a need for You
Holy discontent lies upon my heart; it ignites my soul
When will I come to the end of myself?
What am I waiting for?
Oh, beautiful God, teach me
In a radically broken world, we need radical Jesus
I am willing, I am waiting
Here am I, send me
(Source: alethialov)
In Your Likeness.
Everything I have done
And the person I’ve become
is solely because of You
You took my brokenness, turned it into beauty
Then used it to bring glory to Your name
Every doubt I ever have, You wash away
Everything I say I can’t do, You help me through it
All the worries in my head, You calm them
Every fear ever built up inside, You rid them
Tears fall down my face
As I ponder Your glory
Holiness Himself took upon my filth
All for love, it was all for love
You rescued me
Tune my heartbeat to Yours, Abba
Train my eyes to see like Yours
Use my lips, Lord, to speak Your words
Bless me with Your presence
Make me like You, Yeshua
I want to be like You
(Source: alethialov)
You Alone.
Wonderful God, it is You my heart desires
It turns, twists, and yearns for You
I thirst for You, I hunger for You
Lover of my soul, spring up a well within me
You are the only One who fills me
The only One who overflows me
If I partake of any cup other than Yours,
I only become more deprived
Beautiful Savior, You alone satisfy my soul
You alone
Lord, You alone
(Source: alethialov)
Alive.
Upon the tree of sacrifice I see You
Your heart exposed
Your arms wide open
Your blood pours out like a stream
A never ending stream of love and mercy
You are the sacrificial Lamb
You see me in my brokenness and You call me beautiful
When I see myself as unworthy, You call me Your beloved
When I am ashamed, You cover me with Your grace
You deemed me worthy enough to die for
Your love is relentless
Pursuing the uttermost depths of my heart
My God, I thank You
You are the breath in my lungs
You are the fire in my soul
You are the love in my heart
You are the giver of life
(Source: alethialov)
Stillness.
My King, I could sit and listen to You for hours. For it is in the complete stillness and silence that I hear Your voice. You whisper softly through the gentle blow of the wind.
Your Words—oh, beautiful Words—bring healing to my soul, to my bones. They are a comfort to my heart.
When I am running, running so fast, slow me down. Draw me to You.
My soul longs to be with You. Lord, You are the only One.
(Source: alethialov)
Faithful.
I feel crippled. How long will it take for me to able to withstand hardships? Will my weakness ever fade away? Will I ever win these battles? Oh Lord, my faith in myself is fading. And yet You see me for all I am; every weakness, every fear.
You ravish me in love more than I deserve. The smile on my face, the joy in my heart, it is all because of You; You touch the depths of my soul, You conquer the war for my heart. All my walls crumble at Your feet, all my chains break at Your command.
You are the mighty God who fights for me. Perfect and humble, You died for me. You are my purpose and passion, my King and Father. You are glorious, Lord.
I am confident in You, my beautiful Savior. I have seen Your promises come true
when I sought You with all my heart. You did not hide from me, my Lord, whenever I have inquired of You.
You have never failed to grant me understanding
every time I have put aside time for You. You have showed up to meet with me. Lord, when I am confused or afraid, I have learned to cling to You with all my strength because You are the God who fights for me. And when I am overwhelmed, I lay down my troubles at Your feet
because You are my Comforter.
(Source: alethialov)
Use me.
Lord, use me as a vessel poured out for Your kingdom.
Yeshua, I am Yours.
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Humble Prayer.
How would You have me pray for our nation? I watch with horror as we increasingly turn from Your ways. Your precious Word speaks so strongly to our situation: “The wicked freely strut about when what is vile is honored among men.” Psalm 12:8.
David the Psalmist asks the right question for our day, “When the foundations are being destroyed, what can the righteous do?” Psalm 11:3.
It is because I love the United States of America that I pray with passion for her. Lord, You have greatly blessed our nation. From our beginning, there have been those in leadership who have honored You and sought to lead us in righteousness. You have made us a beacon for freedom around the world for those who are oppressed and downtrodden. The material blessings from Your hand have welled up in national generosity to help those who are hurting, both within and outside our borders.
We recognize our imperfect human nature and structures. The list of our sins, Lord, is long. Without Your mercy, who could stand?
Throughout our nation’s history You have blessed us with times of spiritual awakening and revival. Your Spirit moved in our midst to restore godly worship. You empowered Your people to be witnesses to Your truths and to take stands for righteousness and justice.
Oh Abba, do it again! Come upon Your people again in reviving power. Before our nation can be changed, our hearts must be changed. Turn us from selfishness and sin to Your loving ways.
Your Word tells us that judgement begins in the house of the Lord (1 Peter 4:17). May Your mercy and grace also begin there. Pour out a spirit of repentance upon us. Forgive us for making our faith more about us and our comfort and preferences than about Your purposes here on earth. Fill our pulpits with godly people who will proclaim Your Word fearlessly.
We will respond to Your Word as those who are called by Your name, humbling ourselves before You and in prayer, seeking Your face and turning from our wicked ways. Abba, will You then hear from heaven and forgive our sin and heal our land?
(Source: alethialov)
Guidance.
Oh Lord, I doubted what You had planned for me. But today, I was so moved and so humbled by You as You proved Yourself once again a mighty force in my life.
…Not by might, nor by power, but by My Spirit. Zechariah 4:6.
Lord, You brought me back to where You wanted me. I may have taken a detour, yet You gently rerouted me. I am so in awe of You. My prayer and desire is to truly have Your will be done in my life rather than my own. I am overwhelmed by Your goodness.
Thank You for allowing me to dwell in Your presence more and feel as You relentlessly romance me. You are my Beloved.
I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you. Matthew 17:20.
(Source: alethialov)
Struggle.
Why art thou cast down, o my soul? And why art thou disquieted within me? Hope thou in God: for I shall yet praise Him, [who is] the health of my countenance, and my God. Psalm 42:11.
Lately I have been struggling and have almost lost sight of Who my comfort is. The night I was hit hard was Tuesday, and the next morning during my date with the LORD, this verse above was the first one I read. It’s true that sorrow may last for the night, but Joy comes in the morning (Psalm 30:5)! I love when God gently reminds me in times like these in the most perfect way and in the most perfect time. He knows exactly where and how to lead me. He is Immaculate. After meditating on this verse and coming back to realizing who He is to me and what He means, this was produced and written down in my journal. It’s a personal prayer, but I wanted to share it with you.
Elohim, You are my ever-present comfort. In times where things of this world bring me down, You are my Source of Hope. Help me to lock eyes with You when my soul has been cast down, help me to seek Your face when my soul is disquieted within me. Abba, my help, my comfort. I want to always turn to You first, to think of You not just in my times of need, but always. Consume my thoughts. Thank You for knowing and revealing Yourself to me in ways so indubitably; for moving in my life so strongly. You are faithful, God. Even when I am faithless. Forgive me for losing sight of who You are so easily in my times of trouble. Overwhelm me with Your presence today, tomorrow, and always. I want to seek You all the days of my life and dwell in eternity with You.
Love,
Your daughter
I hope that you seek and thirst after righteousness; after Him. I pray this prayer touches you in some way and encourages and reminds you that God wants to be present in your life. He wants to be your number One, He wants you to always hope in Him and look to Him. And not only in those perilous moments, but always. Seek Him, call on Him, and He will reveal Himself to you once you seek Him wholeheartedly (Jeremiah 29:13).
in Him,
Alethia
(Source: alethialov)
